God’s Spirit shown a white light (called a spiritual awakening)
on Bill W.
a drunk who could not get sober on his own.
God’s Spirit calls us to reach out to the wounded and broken-hearted.
Are we listening?
Are we one of those wounded and broken-hearted?
If we are,
are we asking God to help us heal
understood and was convinced that God wanted and still wants a personal relationship with all of us humans,
especially those who are lost and have strayed away from God.
God wants to heal those who suffer from the disease of alcoholism, addiction or any other addiction or self-destruction behaviors
that have led us away from the Spirit of God and
disconnected us from our own spirit.
Remember the three AAA’s (Awareness, Acceptance and Action)
How powerful is the Spirit of God, to be able to remove the scales of pride and prejudice?
What is Pride?
What is Prejudice?
Why do we need to get rid of pride and prejudice?
Well, look at this, I started this journey with the premise that everyone can benefit from the 12 steps and look where the Spirit of God is taking us.
Open up your eyes to see
Open your ears to hear
Connect to your spiritual heart to become aware,
so you can accept what you see or hear
and take the action you need to take to change
I will go into more about detail about what the 12 step program is and how we all can apply the spiritual principles in our daily lives, however,
the Holy Spirit is leading us down another path first.
Are you ready to go with the flow of the Spirit as it leads us and
see where this takes us and what spiritual lesson we are to learn and focus on?
Pride – What is Pride?
Oh, no… The condescending spirit and judgmental spiritual tone is joining us on this journey today.
I know this spirit intimately….
This spirit was role-modeled and infused in my spirit throughout my whole life.
I swore I would not become like that.
Parenting and the cultural norms in the 50’s and 60’s, and in my family of origin, were based on pointing out your mistakes, adding guilt and shame in the mix and putting you down to make you tougher and stronger to deal with life.
I started to believe that I was a bad person
(unworthy) of a perfect God’s love and Attention.
Grace helped me realize that
I am accepted by God if I do the wrong thing.
I am loved the same from God, whether I do the right thing or the wrong thing.
If I try again to do better, God is happy.
I learned that when I do the wrong thing,
instead of pulling away from God,
I need to get closer to God to help me more.
I started to experience the “unconditional Love of God”.
In recovery and in working the 12 steps
And after connecting to God’s Spirit,
I came to realize and see life
through different lenses.
I was rescued and saved by the Grace of God,
Jesus (God in the flesh)
making forgiveness possible.
I started to see conflict
as an opportunity to learn a spiritual lesson,
to become a better and more mature person.
Instead of beating myself up for making the mistake,
I took it as an opportunity to grow and learn to become a better person.
Grace is entering our path?
What is grace?
Crying was off limits.
Because I was not allowed to cry, I swallowed this shame and guilt.
I now know that swallowing shame and guilt can cause disease if emotional and spiritual surgery are not performed and
it is necessary to release the pent up shame and guilt out of our physical bodies.
How to deal with others who are condescending?
Condescending and judgment were in the forefront. I hated it then and I hate it now.
In early recovery, when a person spoke to me with that spiritual tone,
I immediately bypassed the brain and allowed my mouth to give an emotional response which came out cruel, unkind, sarcastic, and mean.
When I realized that sarcasm means tearing flesh,
that definition motivated me to want to
stop hurting others with my words.
I did not want to be a person who inflicts pain on others via my words.
I asked God to show me how
to share the truth without reprimanding them.
In my research on sarcasm,
I came across this quote and I belly-laughed.
I would not recommend saying this if you are seeking resolution.
Words have power.
I thought people needed to be reprimanded and
I was the one to teach them a lesson.
I even egotistically believed that God had called me to reprimand them and thus they would see the light and change their evil ways.
This is what I now refer to as,
I justified the behavior,
So what if it hurt,
they needed to feel the pain,
so they could change.
They needed to be told the truth.
My motive was pure,
I wanted them to see the error in their ways and
I thought that if they heard the truth,
“The truth would set them free”.
My deliverance of the message
sabotaged the person’s ability to receive the message
and the truth, as I saw the truth.
I was made aware of the spiritual message I was to learn.
I came to realize that I had responded the same way they approached me,
with the same judgmental and condescending tone.
I learned to take a breath before I responded.
When I take a breath,
I am taking in God’s Love and Spirit,
to help me respond with love
instead of responding with judgment.
I don’t know about you but there were many people
in my past who exhibited this tone in their voice?
Judgment and condemnation
were intimate buddies in my past.
I have learned that I am not God,
that I had to stop being a person who weaponized the truth
with a condescending tone.
Because I have become aware of this behavior and
with the help of God’s Spirit,
I have healed from the shame of the past.
I now have discernment and
I can see when others are speaking with this tone and
I have empathy for their response,
instead of taking it personally and
responding with sarcasm,
I respond with love.
Occasionally I will revert back to the old way of responding.
That happens when I am spiritually out of balance.
Pride, Sarcasm and a condescending attitude
can and has ruined friendships and relationships.
Is that ok with me?
My words and deliverance needed
to match my heart.
I needed to work on my deliverance and tone
in which I spoke.
The Spirit of God was giving me lessons
on speaking with diplomacy.
Wow, this quote puts a whole new slant on this.
I was being condescending because I was condescending of myself.
In learning how to deal with this
in regards to others,
I learned how to stop being
condescending of myself.
Who knew, helping others, helps you.
Feelings of Unworthiness surfaced.
I became aware of these feelings of unworthiness.
Do I choose to work through these feelings or stuff them?
Another healing from God
I choose to walk with God again for another healing
Feelings surfaced of Feeling Unloveable
Acceptance is the Key
I will accept these feelings as real
and believe that they are surfacing for a reason
and for healing.
Once again, I knew in order to change this mindset,
I had to ask for divine intervention.
I needed to practice being less judgmental of myself and my actions and understand who I am through God’s Eyes
God made me and loves me just the way I am
my blockage was the belief that
I needed to be perfect
Many times this perfectionism
which led to
Fear of failure
would lead to possible
rejection by others and myself
Once again, I asked for God’s Help.
I needed to change my mindset.
Crush the idea that God wanted me to be perfect.
That is a lie.
God knows that I will never be perfect.
God’s Spirit wants to help me learn my spiritual lessons so I
Intuitively will know how to do it next time.
This is called spiritual maturity.
Who knew, I was learning to grow and mature spiritually
So what could replace
striving for perfection?
How about striving for excellence
To be the best I know how
And always remain open
to keep learning and growing
Keep doing the next right thing and
eventually it will become a habit and
you will intuitively know what to do
and then take action to do it
Wow, I love this visual.
We take pride (a healthy pride) in our achievements
Striving to do our best
Striving for excellence.
“When we know better, we can do better”
Keep learning along the way
Not compromising our standards for self and others
Now, when I find myself
ready to start judging
I immediately look inward
and ask for God’s Spirit
to help me realize
what in me
needs to be changed?
More to follow on the 12 steps on another post, if God’s Spirit does not take us on another path. Stay tuned. Go with the flow…
Love you all,
Esther Mae 1-14-2022
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Happy, Joyous and Free. Enjoying life and retirement. Oct 5, 202, I completed the FEl Camino de Santiago de Frances, over 550 miles, beginning August 15, 2021 in St-Jean-Pied-De-Port, France and ending in Santiago and walked through the Holy Door.
I am 70 year young. Read about some of my adventures. I have a close relationship with my Higher Power, whom I choose to call God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. Spiritual growth and enlightenment are my priorities in life. Please jump on the spiritual soul train with me as I walk and try to practice a spiritual way of life. Esther Mae
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Love you also Esther Mae! Stay also tuned! I hope, you are well! Greetings from Germany!