After re-reading some of my posts I noticed how many times I cried.
I immediately felt weak and started to beat up on myself with harmful condescending thoughts, like a critical parent. What are my readers going to think about me?
My critical self-talk thoughts were like this:
“You were weak when you cried” “What is wrong with you?” “Why did you let someone’s words and actions affect you like that?” “You are 70 years old and you should know better!“ Why aren’t you stronger?” “You have been working a spiritual program for over 32 years and you still cannot master this?” “Why do you continue to let people’s words and actions hurt you and take you out of balance?” “Grow up” “Get tougher”
Wow, just writing my thoughts down gave them power and I do not like how I seem to hurt myself with such critical words.
Wow, I just realized, it was not the bully’s words and actions that hurt me the most, it was my inner dialog that did the most damage.
So how do I stop doing that.
I guess I will start with accepting the fact that maybe there is a good reason and purpose for crying and that it could be a natural and healthy phenomenon.
Acceptance, knowledge and understand may be the keys to break this toxic self-talk abuse which is negatively hurting and effecting my body, mind, spirit, and soul, causing imbalance and suffering.
I will try researching the definitions and seek human and divine knowledge and human and divine wisdom on the phenomenon of crying…
Reason I want to do this:
• I do not want to feel guilty and weak every time I cry
• I want to stop the self-destructive and abusive “critical parent” talk to myself
• I want to learn self-care behaviors that are productive and not destructive to my self-worth
• There are enough hurting people that hurt me without me hurting ourselves
• I want to see the benefits of crying to my body, mind, spirit, and soul
• Hopefully, I will be able to embrace crying as an important part of my spiritual growth
Is there a purpose for crying?
Follow me on this journey into definitions and famous quotes and let’s see how knowledge and wisdom of the ages can help me accept crying for what it is?