Thanks you…Camino Angels

Do I really want to travel alone?   Insights given to me on the Camino?

1. History of Traveling Alone throughout my life
2. I traveled alone on the Camino, which I now realize, I did for most of my life
3. In my childhood I grew up with 5 brothers and 3 sisters and I felt alone
   • I never seemed to be able to develop a close relationship with any of them
   • I know I had a part in that and I am still working on that
4. A select few people came along side me to walk on my path for a season
   • High school
   • College
   • Marriages
   • Divorces
   • Employment
   • Spiritual Awakening, Recovery
   • Cancer Treatment
   • Retirement
   • Camino
5. Awareness:  people showed up to encourage me, just like the camino
6. Awareness:  people showed up to help me, just like the camino
7. Awareness:  people showed up to listen to my woes
8. Awareness:  people showed up to guide me back on my path, like the camino
9. Awareness:  There was & always will be a few that think their path should be your path
10. Awareness:  They all stayed for a while and then they ventured off on their own paths, just like the camino

If I view life as an adventure like the camino, I will practice appreciating those who show up in my path of life and experience and learn from the message or messages they may have for me. I am aware that many times I have a message for them also.

Messages can be delivered from a loving and nurturing angel or from a condescending and what I call a “mean angel”.  Given the choice, I prefer the loving and nurturing angel, however, many times, the mean angel is the “verbal kick in the ass” that I need to snap out of the blinders of rebellion and denial.  

I thought I traveled alone throughout my life.  That is lie and I need to crush that idea.  

After writing this short piece, I realize I was never alone.  I connected to those who entered my path in life.  Magic happened.  I was changed by the connections.  I choose to grow and learn from these special relationships.  Looking back in hindsight, I realize how, even in the most traumatic and chaotic periods, I grew the most.  The reason some of my relationships did not work out for the long term is because I chose to grow and they chose to regress and become bitter and resentful with my growth.  

I will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it.  My past, my path & my choices gave me opportunities to grow and mature and develop my character and soul and allow my spirit to be set free.

I am grateful for all of you “earth angels” who entered my path in the past and on the camino.  I am now willing to open my heart and spirit to those who will be entering my way (camino), my path in days to come.

Love you all, Esther Mae